I read
an article late last night that's been praying on my mind.
It was
about how it's normal to feel guilty when you first start doing
things as a Dom to a sub, and that's a feeling I remember all too
well.
The
feeling that what I'm doing is wrong, is nasty, sick or disgusting.
How can I lift my hands to a woman and spank her that much that she
cries? How can I wrap my hands around a womans neck and squeeze until
she's gasping for air, and not be anything other than a serial-killer
in the making. How disrespectful to her is it that I ram my cock down
her throat, or spit on her, or treat her like a piece of meat that's
there for me to just fuck.
It's
because of the consent. The willingness. The co-operation and
understanding of a partnership. It's because she wants it too.
The
Dom/sub relationship is an intense one, especially once it's been
going long enough to get that almost psychic bond that allows you to
know without words what the other is thinking. The change in the
normal rules of 'couples', the departure from the everyday morals
handed down from state, church, older generations, friends, all the
people who say this is right, this is wrong. That's sick.
You're
stepping away from that. Your moral boundaries become what is
agreeable between you and your sub, limited only by what you're both
comfortable with and whatever your imaginations can conjure up. That
doesn't mean that your conscience doesn't rebel though.
I found,
and I'm glad the article agreed with me, that as long as the
communication is open and honest between you both, that you give it a
little time and continue to learn about each other, and that you
ensure that consent and trust is there in everything you do, then the
worries, the feelings of guilt and self-condemnation ease away.
Then you
can get on with the nasty.
While I
was writing Threads: The Island I touched briefly upon this subject,
with Kyle being the vanilla guy and Patricia being the deviant sub,
and how their sexual tastes clashed. It's something I plan to explore
more in the next book, particularly how Kyle reconciles himself with
doing things to a willing and wanting woman, things that he's always
considered wrong. How does a guy who's formative sexual experience
was making love with an incredible intimacy suddenly become aroused
by aggressively taking someone while physically restraining her? It's
a big change of perspective, and one I think you have to be naturally
inclined for in order to embrace.
That's
not to say he will or he won't. That's still to be written, but as
for me, my Dom thoughts and tendencies, my feelings of guilt....
I remind
myself none of it is possible without the consent and willing
participation of the suib, and I remember the joy on her face, the
pleasure radiating from her, and the embrace and words we share
after.
A Dom
needs a sub to be a Dom. You can't have one without the other.
JJ
Butterfly Flip has written a very insightful blog about the sub's perspective in a D/s relationship, and you can find it here:
http://understandingflutterby.blogspot.com/2012/01/submission-kink-or-more.html
Well worth a read, and a follow!
JJ
UPDATE:
Butterfly Flip has written a very insightful blog about the sub's perspective in a D/s relationship, and you can find it here:
http://understandingflutterby.blogspot.com/2012/01/submission-kink-or-more.html
Well worth a read, and a follow!
JJ
Tis an interesting subject JJ, and one I wish to address myself from a subs perspective...(which I'll do later on on my blog)
ReplyDeleteConsent is the key, knowing absolute limits, knowing which lines can be blurred a little...
It's a relationship like any other, just different dynamics at work
B x
Let me know when you do. I'll post the link up here so people can read the sub's perspective on it.
ReplyDeletePlus, I want to read it! :)
JJ
I've blogged :D
DeleteIt may well be a little disjointed in places, I always find I have lots of ideas about what I want to write, then lose the ability to form coherent setences when sitting infront of a blank screen!!
B x
The Girl done Good ;-)
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